Well, here I am again for the third time, feeling like myself. I always know that my brain is mine again when I get an itch to start making music. It's almost comical that I lose my mind over and over and then get it back. I have scheduled studio time in February and I really need to release four songs that I have recorded over the past couple years. I know it sounds dumb but it’s always the cover art that holds me back. I would usually get some photos done of myself but I will be honest it is still very hard to see myself in photos and what this tumor has done to me. It’s like I don’t recognize myself. I have been doing a lot of therapy and healing and I know that I will feel confident again but in the meantime it’s hard.
This year I am really aiming to get my music licensed for tv and film. It’s always been a goal of mine and I feel determined to do it. I know my songs are good enough, I just need one single music supervisor to listen to them. It’s way harder than you think but I will continue to knock on every damn door until one opens. I am no stranger to hard things, in fact it's become my way of life.
I am also going to start taking guitar lessons. It’s been something I have always wanted to learn so now that my brain is ready I feel eager to do so. Funny story, I took ukulele lessons at the time I unknowingly had a massive brain tumor so I literally do not remember a thing. I wonder if I can get my money back haha.
Well I am excited to share my new songs with you soon and look forward to getting back to doing what I was made for. I always feel lucky that I know exactly why I am here on Earth and my purpose. Battling this brain tumor has only reinforced that and shown me that I am stronger than I have ever known.